Sometimes, I will think about the future. Remind me of not wasting youth and hard working now.
Sometimes, however, all my attention is on the future. I forget what I have and the things can be done in my age and in the future I will regret if I don't do now. I forget to enjoy the scenery on the way.
Sometimes, I care too much about what I am doing and how to do them perfectly. But I don't realise the direction is more important than efforts.
Sometinmes, I want to give up. I am told to think about why I insist on for so long. But forget to make the decision independently and remind me of the reasons why I wanna quit.
Sometimes, I am afraid of the result and the juging by others. However, if I fail or it turn out to be a bad choice, so what? I am gonna lose my legs or arms? No, just some words from others that will not wound you a bit.
This is what the life is like. Sometimes, we are sad for what we encounter in the day. Sometimes, however, we are happy also for what we encounter in the day. There is too much uncertainty, you can't tell what's it gonna be. There is no absoluteness, the things correct now may be wrong tomorrow. You have plenty of choices to make everyday but you can't choose your future. What we can control is what to do now.
We are young, we have the time and right to to waste, to enjoy the bitterness as well as hapiness, to make mistakes, to grow up in adversity, to choose what we wan to be and to fight for what we want. Maybe it's a tough way, but it's better than dying in silence. And whatever the future will be, many years later, when looking back, at least we will never regret because we have fully tasted the flavor of life.
Sometimes, I will calm down, sitting in a peaceful place and think about life.
