After March, now I became a little available now. For the whole day today, I was an indoorsman. I havent write something seriously for a long time. I felt a little guilty and decided to write something seriously. Three years ago, I stayed at a little room and learnt a little English, now Im still in my little room and learn a little English. When I opened my Webster dictionary or Longman dictionary, I found my English was very poor most. The more I learn it, the more I find Im idiot on English. The less I learn it, the less I find my English not bad. Probably learning a foreign language is a thing for life.
I always like to be a professional man. Being a man, the first thing is to own an unique skill. Because it can give you confidence, no matter what happens, you wont have to worry about earning bread to support your family and yourself. Im a software engineer, to be honest, Im a sensitive man and not good at technology. Actually Im too care about the heart instead of material life brought by science and technology. I can only be a common engineer, neither too good nor too bad, so science and technology wont become my strong point and I wont treat it as my thing for life. Two of my strongest points are painting and language. The painting dream is already dead. The language dream isnt bright for the sake of all those years of technology training. Sometimes, I thought I was a useless guy without any unique skill. English, Ive learnt it seriously since 2008 in order to get out of vacuity. Though my English is still poor, it already becomes a part of my life. Being a man, I have to have something as the spiritual sustenance. Language is actually a very powerful thing. It can cheer people and kill people at the same time. One forth of the year 2012 is gone with wind. What will I do in the remaining days of 2012?
I havent made much progress on English, even less than on technology. Ive been thinking of the reason for a long time. Probably because I treated myself too well. I only learnt a little English when I was happy, or else I would use unhappiness as an excuse to avoid learning English. In a word, no pressure on myself. No pressure, no oil in oil well; No pressure, no progress on people. I even have time to think of small beer and I think that means I didnt spend time enough in learning English. Im not a language genius, plus no diligence, how could I suppose to treat English as my unique skill?< I am not a language genius as good as not a diligent personhence it is not possible for me to treat English as my unique skill>
I must finish my two English dictionaries in 2012. Though both of the two books are really thick, but I have more than two hundred days left for me to finish them. I only have to finish twenty pages every day, whats more, I have to leave footsteps behind on them. Try my best to finish Cambridge History of China, Charles Dickens and Mart Twains work, Twenty-four histories, Four Classics and other Chinese Quintessence. Thats it.
