firm in my mind

I want to a determined man ,I still best of my time to accomplish my goal.But it seems more different than I would have though possibly.A few day ago I always follow my plan to do everyday's countine even I feel boring and nevious,but I still lost myself when I face up with the tempation of my surroundings.At that time I looks like another person and I can't control myself,perhaps in my mind I have defaultedthis.The tempation is so powerful for I can't resist it so I falled such as when I find a wonderful novel I can't help to stop read it.It is so great and I want to know its contents at once,so I read and read then I fall in and never back.When I find the true purpose of my learing it is too late ,there is no time left.Last night I forget what I should do completely ,that make me feel guilty and I want to remedy.However I see the past was the past which I can get again,which I can do now is to learn from this experience and prevent it happen again.I am a ordinary people and I have many shortcomings which I really need a lot of determination,strengh and courage to come over it.Therefore even I have try my best to conpuer it ,it also might will come back.So the firmness in my mind is so important that can support me go through all of this so that the failure can't defeated me completely ,I will stand up again with my firm spirity.